But even though I do try, I always wind up becoming depressed and what not. The whole situation with my aunt's dog is making me upset because I have a dog too. I'm even trying to emotionally prepare myself for the day when she passes on, but I can't. Because I keep imagining the day when Xander will pass on. And I have no one to turn to because well, tachi's in Japan right now teaching, And Anu, she has her own emotional difficulties she's going through, and me, I feel like I can't tell people my problems because I think that I'll burden them with my angst.



In short, I feel helpless and isolated from people I don want to talk to, and I don't know what to do.